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I can’t believe it’s been 4 years since I made efforts to write here. Or anywhere really. Facebook has proven to be a good venue for me because I can be a smartas$ in a few words. It also serves as a way for me to keep up with far-flung family and friends, so it has been fun to be on there. Sorry blog.

I can’t explain why I lost the urge to blog, but I am so grateful for all the people who’ve asked me when I’m going to start again.Strange (for me) is that I haven’t really even journaled or written anything “on the side.” Something to do with stopping therapy maybe??

I seem to have lost some of my sarcastic mojo, which apparently was the lifeblood of my blog. Sure, I can still be snarky with the best of them, but some of that edge has softened.

Lord knows I have enough to say, though, so I guess some things haven’t changed…

So I guess we’ll see. I have to start somewhere again and here it is. More to come??

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I miss you. I miss the act of writing, I miss being a snarky smartas, I miss having somewhere to vent, I miss my commenters, I miss having the inspiration. Maybe soon…

When I hit 15000 I’ll let you know the most often-viewed pages.

~2 mos. of working too many hours

Went to Mexico for  a few days over T-giving

Came back to same chaos at work

Came back to beautiful new ceiling in BR (no more flaking plaster!) and long overdue new color there PLUS my long-awaited cove molding in LR & DR

Got really sick – like ‘before I quit smoking’ sick -bronchitis and all

Decided this work thing isn’t working for me

Laptop may have fallen off couch. In the shop. Another $200. Next breakage=new ‘puter. All this money for a POS Dell just ain’t right.

TG my data and files and bookmarks are all backed up so I can access them still.

Miss my podcast downloads — pretty much the same stuff as last time

Sold my soul to the devil (again) and signed up for Facebook. Privacy concerns but it suits my smart-ass quick comebacks nicely and I like throwing random thoughts out there to see what people say. I think “a friend” deleted my question “Are you thinking about killing your children?” when she was the one who put this quote out there: “Herod the king, in his raging, charged he hath this day, his men of might, in his own sight, all young children to slay.” Now seriously, what else would you think but homicide? And why would she delete my comment questioning the obvious?! So I posted another question asking if she deleted my comment. 🙂 She reminds me of another family member: “No I’m fine. Everything is fine.” “Mom, are you telling me it doesn’t hurt that a truck just ran over your leg?” “No really dear, I am fine.”

Going back to Mexico!! New place and with a friend. Can’t WAIT! Have already decided I’m NOT dropping pants for TSA so I may not actually end up in Ixtapa.

Might be adopting a dog that’s Fanny’s best friend at dog park. As much as I love this potentially-mine dog though, I’m hesitating, possibly because Fanny is pu-lenty active. Not sure what will end up happening…but they’re really cute when they play together. They totally ignore everything around them.

Survived (and I do mean ‘survived’) Xmas. Family dramas and traumas abounded but all is well for now.

Way past my bed time and tonight is a school night. If there’s anyone who still checks here, I’m sorry for being such a slacker but appreciate you checking!!

Well, yet again I find myself finally returning this summer’s reading for punishment — (Train your Mind, Change Your Brain — apparently I did neither) after renewing it the maximum # of times (originally checked out 6/2).

So yeah, I’ve had it checked out for about 3 1/2 months, haven’t finished it, and it’s overdue, as were at least 2 previous selections for reading for punishment: The Lost Gospel of Judas Iscariot and The Heart of the Buddha’s Teaching.

Someone with a larger ego might be embarrassed not completing them, but nope – not me. A bit disappointed, but not embarrassed. I tried, right? And it’s not like I totally slacked off in the reading department: I did manage to catch up on several months’ worth of O, National Geographic, Vanity Fair, Smithsonian, More, and read several thriller-type and just-plain-funny books…

What did you read this summer? (If it was something like Proust please don’t comment.)

Have lived without my laptop 3 weeks now and am missing it more as time passes…I am at the libarry now, using the public machines, which is cool, but it’s not the same as having it at home…

Here’s what I miss:

  • gizmodo.com
  • lifehacker.com
  • consumerist.com
  • tmz.com (I’m ashamed. Shallow, but ashamed)
  • unclutterer.com
  • netvibes.com

What I knew I’d miss and now I really miss:

  • tvguide (What am I missing on my local PBS digital stations? What will I miss because I don’t know about it? Is The Office on next week or another stupid “reality” show?)
  • podcasts: (I am so far behind in downloading audio I wouldn’t get to for another year anyway but now I won’t even know what I’ve missed ’cause it’ll drop off the list and I’m too lazy to go to the websites and see what was on.)
  • Ability to download more podcasts to phone, cd, mp3 player
  • Same with music (am over Poco for a while)
  • Looking up stuff on the fly (Who was that author on the radio? Wonder what’s on sale at Target this week? What’s the difference between cayenne, red, chili peppers? When is my library book due?)
  • Online bill paying
  • Even my (offline) ‘Come to Hayzeus’ (talk it out) with my budget
  • Missed the last 2 episodes of Samantha Who and it’s bugging me.
  • Blogging: I’m actually not sure I miss it. While I always have something to say (no big surprise there, eh?) and moments of inspiration (no really!) and the desire to let it out on “paper,”  work is sucking the life out of me and what’s left is taken by the Fanster. Not to mention it’s summer and I like reading on the back porch and/or going to the pool…

I was thinking about doing Twitter, because I frequently have random thoughts that would be perfectly suited to Twitter’s über-haiku format. But then I think “what if I only have 2 followers?” and I think I would get depressed about that.

And then I thought about doing Facebook, because even some of my (ahem) uncles have been harassing me about not having a page. But I don’t need something else to suck my time away, and I don’t want to be in touch with anyone from high school except the one I’m in touch with, and I’m not going to be “friending” my boss, so WTF? I can’t even stay in touch with friends in the real world, so now I should be “friends” in the cyberworld?!

I guess I could use it to post pix and what – only – a- parent – thinks – is -perfectly – adorable- ramblings about my dog  (the Poopy Diaper Chronicles?) and do some mini-twitters (something about a wall in FB? Mine would always say ‘Marie/y is walking her dog’), but I hear FB is addictive, and if there’s one thing that someone who quit smoking 6 years, 5 months, and 29 days ago does not need is something to become addicted to.

And then I review my life over the last couple of months, and it’s “all puppy all the time” (“and did I tell you she can stay ‘down’ for more than 10 seconds now? and she has the attention span of a butterfly?”)

yawwwwnnnnn – the Poopy Diaper Chronicles

Or possibly worse, with the exception of a no-holds-barred job hunt to move down South, I am living virtually the same life I was last year at this time: bitching about grass growing in the garden and not in the yard, working too much (although this year I have the punishment of making less money—yeah yeah, I know…at least I have a job–whatever–tell it to my 401k), walking the dog (albeit a new dog) all the time, talking about my grandmother’s Eureka Princess vacuum cleaner (it died btw), wondering where all the flies come from.

Sure there are a few variables, but essentially I am living Groundhog Day. Basically my life has been so rote that I don’t even have the twisted point of view to make fun of it here (or anywhere).

That was also an alarming realization – if nothing else I’ve always had my twisted perspective to see me through…

Add that to the fact that (for reasons out of my control) I haven’t had a vacation this year, nor met several goals I had for myself a year ago, and suffice it to say I had a mini-wakeup call.

So I decided that I’m going to re-frame this time in my life as a time to prepare for what lies ahead. Not that I know what that is mind you, but what I have now isn’t what I had planned…I’m not used to that – I usually meet my goals.

So for now I’m looking for cheap thrills (on every level) and am mixing it up a little: Going into work later, taking 1/2 day off, making more effort to see my friends, getting rid of toxic friends, seeing my cousin’s baby (who I keep calling my niece, but since I don’t see mine I’m adopting this one as my 3rd niece), going a different way to work, etc.

Even taking the dog somewhere different to walk, since I have walked every single street within the surrounding mile and am sick of it all. I now actually frequently drive my dog for a walk. That just seems wrong, but I don’t care. I’ll go stark, raving madder if I have to keep walking the same walk.

But yeah, I’m doing crazy stuff like that. Next thing you know I’ll be trolling for men in bars or something. Anything is possible. I just have to see the possibility through the b.s. I’m swimming in.

note to self: possible book title “Swimming in (Through?) Sh!t” – need subject

But, don’t abandon me dear reader (even those of you who’ve reduced me to your “check once a week” list). Short of an original thought, I have 50+ drafts I can always post, and stay tuned for my new dog treat name and tagline idea.

More to come but in the meantime I’ll be living a the dream.

I’m desperately trying to re-frame this time in my life as a time to prepare for what lies ahead.

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